unwanted

No matter where I look I get the feeling that I'm not wanted.  Like others can see a part of me that is lacking and don't want to be near me.  I'm so very tired of feeling like this all of the time.  Recently I've noticed that now that my wife has her new main squeeze I've been relegated to a position resembling a warm blanket.  I feel like what she wants from me now is comfort and support.  Which I'm fine with providing but that's all she wants.  I feel like she is letting this bad girl out with him and its something I've been wanting to see again for years.  It seems like she has finally fully cut loose and could only do that with out me.  I honestly thought that she wanted to be my second half.  I thought that she wanted to be my player two.  But all it feels like it I'm her comfort zone she can fall back onto.  I haven't seen the kinkier side of her in a long time.  I feel like because I work from home and try to take care of the house that I've become something boring and uninteresting.  I really wish she would want me like that.  I wish she would get dressed up for me every now and then.  I wish she would initial sex when it didn't feel like a fucking pity lay.  I normally don't mind initiating sex but it feels like lately I've just been pawing at her while she sits there and takes it.  I feel like she is getting much more satisfied by what she is getting in her other relationship.