Last night I could feel the rift, it was like some large tangible thing sitting between us. I could feel it as we continued to pull away from each other. I could feel her trying to breach it but it felt only like a token gesture. I'm sure she dreams about him now and that I'm only an after thought. It feels like the rift keeps growing and growing and I am helpless to stop it. I have tried everything I can think of and none of it has helped. Any attempt I've made to express myself has only muddled the water further and complicated the whole matter. Every effort I put in feels like it isn't good enough and is being weighted against an entirely new metric that I don't know the rules of. The thing that stings the most for me is I was finally letting go of all of my past crap and fully appreciating everything I had. But as soon as I did that it feels like it all fell to shit.
I've tried everything,
I've said all I can,
I just have to wait and see,
The end.
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