Anger

There are times I get so god Damn angry with both of them.  I want to scream in her face, "how the fuck could you do this to me! Why the fuck are you fooling around with him! Does our marriage mean so god Damn little to you! Fuck you! Get the fuck out!" And to him "You fucking ass hole. What the fuck are you thinking? Messing around with my god Damn wife? Did you not learn anything from our past? Or are you so sick of your wife that you had to come after mine? Every time I see the two of you together it fucking kills me.  You inconsiderate, selfish mother fucker." At both of them "And how fucking dare you for getting mad at me for having a problem with it. Sorry that because shaula and mindas want to do something it is suddenly ok now. And I've just got to get over your self. Sorry that none of us give a shit over what you had to go through to salvage your marriage. However when she gets tired of me she can do whatever the fuck she wants. Fuck both of you."

But nope I don't do that, because of the fucking kids.  All I think about how is what would happen to them if I left her, or she left me. The thought of losing her is the worst, even though I can feel it slipping I can't let go.