Is anyone even listening

I love it how when this whole damn thing started that I was told that if I'm not comfortable with things to tell everyone and they would back off.  I was told that its a balanced plate and if one side isn't working then the whole thing can fall.  That if one person isn't comfortable or happy then the whole thing will fail.

So when I tell them that hey I'm not comfortable with this whole open relationship thing I get all sorts of blow back.  I try to express my feeling and how I'm perceiving things and it only makes the whole thing worse.  So what it tells me is since I was trying to be ok with everything before I just have to suck it up and deal with it because nothing is going to change now.  Instead of understanding of my feelings and opinions I get a "Just get over yourself and stop being so grumpy".  Like its my fault for having these feelings and thoughts.  It feels like no matter what I say or do they are going to do whatever the fuck they want and I just have to deal with it.  She keeps telling me that she isn't going anywhere but doesn't understand that it feels like I'm dying from all of this.

I really feel like this is the Kitty and Wolf gets what they want show and everyone else just has to deal with it.  I've dumped so much into these relationships it feels like its a god damn joke.  I was the only one to keep any type of cohesion between the two families and when things start to get back to a normal steady pace, BOOM.  Now they are being all junior high school love affair and I'm over here trying to deal with all of the emotional crap that them doing that brings.  It really feels like I'm being punished for trying to keep everyone friendly with each other.  Lately I've been questioning why I even did it in the first place.  Why didn't I just let those relationships fade away and we could have moved on to something different.  Instead I dealt the the bullshit and crap for all that time and what is my reward? My wife is all googly eyed for someone I had considered my best friend.

What if the only way out of this is to just leave?  What if the only way I can get out is divorce? What will happen to the kids?  What will I do with myself?